Schoofy Lore

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Call me Schoofy! I’m just a girl who loves to sing & has always loved the ocean. It’s definitely a little spooky, but that’s just another thing for me to love about it!

I’ve been singing since before I can remember, & even when I tried new instruments, I always went back to training my singing voice throughout my life.

I think the first thing I ever wanted to be was a mermaid (and I still do), but since it wasn’t possible for me, I thought it would be so fun to be a singer like Shakira. She was the first artist that I was a superfan of when I was a young kid, & I still carry so much love for her.

For a while when I was a kid, all I wanted to be was a Voice Actress, so after being at the same elementary/middle school for most of my young life, I decided to make a big step and change schools for a high school with a theatre program & audition for the very first time in my life. I was so afraid & a very introverted and shy child growing up, so this felt like I was going to die, meaning I definitely could not sing for the teachers. In that case, I would scream, cry, throw up, and then die.

But I got in, & fell in love with theatre. My personality opened up like a caterpillar emerging from its cocoon to become a butterfly, much like my name, Vanessa, which happens to mean “butterfly” in Greek. (fun fact!)

In high school, I did so much within my theatre program, & I loved going to school because of it—& my Marine Science class one year. My dream evolved into wanting to become an On-Screen actress, because I began to recognize & be curious about the directing, set design, costumes, & the technical side of all of it. So I decided to work at a local theatre in my hometown to try to get my foot in the door to gain some experience & potentially form important connections.

I was able to get onstage there & also did many other things as well. I was an actress, laundry girl, spotlight operator, box office receptionist (for only like 4 days because phone calls give me too much anxiety), & stage manager, which ended up being my breaking point.

For some reason, this specific job threw me into a depression & it really felt like someone smacked my head with a shovel or something while screaming the words: “What are you doing with your life?”

At twenty years old, I was prompted a question by my inner voice that began to change my brain chemistry, forcing me to finally think about what I wanted to do.

I never wanted to go to college because I would always hear stories of people who went & never even used their degree, or would have to spend the rest of their lives paying back the student debt they racked up from going. I never even had enough money to go in the first place, & I didn’t want to take classes that did not pertain to what I wanted to do, so I looked into conservatories, but those were also out of my price range.

Scholarships were an option for me, but frankly, I didn’t want to write 100 essays saying that I deserved to be chosen because I was an unfortunate child who lost a parent at a young age & how it’s made me a different person. How could I say I had changed when I didn’t even know who I was in the first place? I also never felt good about the idea of using my mother’s death for my personal benefit, so I had nothing to write.

I thought long & hard about what I wanted to do with my life, & thought back to the beginning of it.

All my life, I had always sung. It was my most favorite thing to do, & at the same time, my most feared to show others. Since the beginning, I wanted to be a singer, and all throughout my life I looked at music artists with awe, admiration, and appreciation. I even began to produce music in high school, and made a couple songs I really loved, so what was I thinking, wanting to be an actress? Throughout high school and out of it working at the theatre for about three years now, I could never choose between if I wanted to be a singer or an actress. I finally began to steer towards being a singer, when one day I had a conversation with my dad about my late mother.

He told me that one night after having a normal day, when sitting in their beds just about to go to bed, he asked my mother this: “Violeta, if you could live your life all over again, what would you do instead?”

She said “I always thought it would be fun to be a singer. Like Shakira or Selena.”

Those words my dad passed onto me from a memory with my mom sealed the deal, & I knew what I was going to be.

~Schoofy <3

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